With my 20th birthday coming up, it is time for me to reflect on the last year and prepare myself for a new one. This year has been the most drastically different year from the rest of my entire life, and it has been my most emotionally difficult year so far.
My favorite number has been 19 since I was about six and had a dream about being 19 years old. It was the magical number of my childhood, and I always looked forward to it with great expectations. That would be the year that I would do something great. That would be the best year of my life, where I would have good friends and I would do every single thing that made me happy. Surely, nothing could stand in my way. 19 was such a magnificent seeming age. I would no longer be a child, but I would not yet be burdened with the responsibility of adulthood.
I love the feeling of eating something delicious that I know is good for me. It almost feels naughty to eat delicious food, even when I now it’s filled with nutritional value.
The fear of eating good food always appears for me while drinking smoothies, and I know that I need to get over that feeling so that I can continue eating healthful foods. I even feel bad eating nice cream or roasted vegetables sometimes because they are just too darned yummy! Does anyone else get this way?
Sometimes it is just too easy to forget the beauty and happiness that surrounds us all. I try to focus a particular amount of my attention on appreciating the people and circumstances around me, but I take so so much for granted, especially lately. Do you ever feel that way?
Since I began developing recipes for the blog, it seems like my recipes have devolved to being less and less healthful, and I think that it is because I have always pictured recipe sharing as something that I need to prepare an extravagant and commonly enjoyed food item for, so I try to think of traditional foods to convert into vegan foods. But the sacrifice of health that I usually make for food that I hope people might enjoy is just silly. For that reason, I want to make a vow to you all that I will incorporate more of a focus on health for my recipes in the future. However, if I do perfect a sinfully delicious cake recipe, I won’t be able to resist sharing it with you, so dont worry. AKA watch out.